When I lost my step father 9yrs ago it really had a bad affect on me. Even after all these years it still getaway to me sometimes. Healing from something like thus will take years and I'm really happy that it sounds like your going in the right direction. I'm going through the relationship problem with my wife right now and I couldn't imagine loosing my dad at the same time dealing with this. I'm so happy that you didn't just give up and that your fighting through this, Chris. Keep your head up brother, things will get better. I think about all my brothers and sisters here and always wish you all the very best.